[오블완 챌린지] What is true happiness for me?

I think I've lost a lot of myself since I was 18, I mean it's the 2nd year of high school. 18 is the age when you start to think about entering society, and at that time, test scores are the most important thing.

In South Korea, students are divided into grades. The lowest is grade 8 and the highest is grade 1. Grade 1 is what the top students get. I was an average student and I think I got an average grade of 3-5.

In such a system, it's natural to want to do your best as a student, get good grades and be at the top of your class.

So almost all students study hard and compete with each other on test scores, everyone going for the same goal. They think that this goal will make them happier and more successful. In fact, students who are at the top of the competition may even feel superior.

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But it's hard to find true happiness in a mini-game in a world shaped by external institutions. Even the opportunity to reflect on who you are as a person becomes a luxury when everyone is running in the same direction.

To borrow a phrase from reality transurfing, the pendulum always drains the energy of the individual so that its followers fall prey to (희생물, 희생자, 희생양이 되다) its tricks and get so deep into the game that they act like puppets, unaware of what they really want or why they should do it.

I really agreed with that sentence. in that way, I think i partly lose myself.

For example, I lose a way to think myself, to decide something and to be responsible for it.

But reading a book and writing helps me to think myself and have confidence in what I choose.

If I haven't written anything, I can't feel myself and it's hard to know how I feel about something.

So I am drawn to reading and writing and I believe there is a certain power in it.

It has the power to empower me to act as the protagonist of my own life by enabling me to think autonomously.

 

I'm truly free and happy when I take the time to write a thoughtful piece while listening to soothing music, or when I read a good book and let my imagination run wild and feel like I'm travelling freely through an unseen world.

These feelings are unique and intimate, something that happens inside me, something no one else can touch. True happiness is not external, it is internal.

And I think it would be even better if this inner energy, this wave, could grow and flow out and be shared with someone else.

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The color of each soul is unique. The person who can love it and cherish it is attractive. So have faith that true happiness is within you.